
Now I feel confused, lonely and insecure…
I don’t know where I’m going anymore.
I’m scared because I know there are doors
that I haven't open. I’m terrified to see what is
behind them. The truth, I don’t want to deal
with that. Am I being a scary cat? I don’t know.
I think that I had pause my life… I’m standing
in front of a river with cold water and I’m trying
to immerse my feet, but I’m taking
baby steps to get into it. I know I’m brave because I got
here in front of this big river. But, I’m terrified even
I don’t know where I’m going anymore.
I’m scared because I know there are doors
that I haven't open. I’m terrified to see what is
behind them. The truth, I don’t want to deal
with that. Am I being a scary cat? I don’t know.
I think that I had pause my life… I’m standing
in front of a river with cold water and I’m trying
to immerse my feet, but I’m taking
baby steps to get into it. I know I’m brave because I got
here in front of this big river. But, I’m terrified even
when I know that eventually I will cross the river and the sea.
mrr
02/25/06
Arlington, VA